messy night xD

soo yeaaaa! i will not forget this night :D its the best night ever and the worse night ever :D HAHAHAH~ sooo yeaa :) that is my partayy girl!! yea... they are fun type and open minded! cool~

she is MINE!

ahaaaaa! guess who is she?? besides me :) she's like my sister dude :) yeaaa... our friendship dha arround 11 tahun! OMG!! so longgggg! okay~ she is fakhirah and yea, she is singaporean :) duhh~ she is a good girl on noon,,, but a noughty girl ever on night xD HAHAHA~ OHH yaaa~ she is a DORAEXPLORER fanatic! HAHAHAHA so yeaa.. i need, love her a lot :) seriously!!! she just like my blood dude :)) she is my sistaaa! and yeaa... she is the HOT girl ever i've meet :)) so beyond everyone, to have her in my life :) whatever we do, we do it together :) i will pray to god for her safety and her life :) she is the best thing i ever had! we shared everything... and yea... iloveher... my girl FAKHIRAH :))

dupstep party :D

okay :) this part aku pergi party dupstep at XEX the zon! at first quite boring yaaa knw! seriously, cuz tak ramai kott -.-'' but after for a while the situation dha okay :) soo yeaaaa~ the point i nak story is.... my mangkuk ayun nihhh~ Ferdaus is damn hyper on that time... omg!! i love the way he dance :) really terpukauuu! seriously :) im sooo lucky to have him in my life :) and yea,,, im really jello of him -.- *psssttt! can you believe thatttt!!! omg! i hope that i can dance like him -.- seriously!! blahhh~

ouhhh~ miss them -.-

okay -.- part nii sila abaikan muka aku yang blur tuuu heh xD we start from left! its fyra, and then aecha and its me!!!! yoooo! their are my superduper girlfriend before i messep up everything and end up our relation T.T n yea,,, i admit that i miss the time we used to be together :O laughing together and else :)yeayea :) we're so close till the bitch is SELIT MASUK in our relation! ohhh pleaseee~ kau hanyalahh perempuan yang act nk kencing berdiri -.-' HELL NOO! i hate that bitch! she is a pengkid, that love to ruin everything -.- grrr~ but its okay :) what goes around comes around okay bitch!!! ouhh~ i just hope that my ex-girlfriend is fine and happy with their life now :)) i wish you the best till end :)) remember this, i will always miss and love you two :) be with you two is the best part in my life :) kbye :))

omg!! 2 months i didnt update my blog!!! :O

omg!!!! its already 2 months i didnt update my blog at all! ouhhh! cant believe that :O huu~ but its okay :D cuz my blog is my privacy :D HEHEHEH~ so yeaaa :) im a bit busy with the worl thing -.-'' so yeaa~ i have a lot of story wanna write in my blogg, but seriously i felt lazy :O duhhh~ so yeaaa! just keep waiting for my latest story after this :D ciaooo~

cry

cry all night long...

its doesnt make me felt better at all...

i just want to cure the pain...

everything was changed..

its not the same anymore...

i miss the old you ;)

sayang ;)

lately nii, we always argue with each other..

dont know where is the mistake,

before nii kite ta pernah cm ni sayang ;')

now?? 

almost everyday kite gado sayang :(

please~

im sorry if its my fault :(

but,,,

you cant force me for something i dont want to do..

baby sayang :')

i love you dear <3

i tanak hal yg remeh temeh nii bt bii jdi give up on me :(

pleasee bii :(

jgn jadikan relation kite something yang worthless baby...

baby~

even now kite slalu ad masala...

i still love you like how we fall in love at the first ;)

im sorry sayang :(

tired

im tired :(

damn tired of this shit!

i just wanna do what i want.

i just want to leave this shit behind,

and,

move on with happiness :)

pleasee~

let me go!

i dont want stuck in this place anymore!

i just wanna have my own life..

pleaseeeeee.....

white wine is damn!

here the stories :)

last week i go lepak with my fellow friends at Cabana Lounge @ The Zon :)

i damn blur on that time so i dnt knw wanna drink what..

so, i just tell my friends to order any kind of drink for me..

tooooptooop~ 

i saw the waitress bring 1bottle of white wine :)

yeahh~ the white wine is for me :)

the waitress is opened up the bottle and pouring the wine into the glasses :D

and he give it toooo me :) 

1st shot! i feel great!

2nd shot i still okay!

3rd shot! i realize that white wine is make me sick!!!

damn! white wine is not nice at all ~,,~''

only 3 shot its make my throat felt hot n make me down -,-''

ohh goshii!

fewwwww~ 

yuria kushido

                      

yuria kushido is my baby ever xD

okay~ she drive me crazy!

damn hot!

damn gorgeous!

damn pretty!

damn ex!

ohh~ i lovethewayshedressup!

iloveeverythingabouther!

sheSUPERB!!! 

hooo~ orite :) kantoi -,-''

haaa~ okay -,-'' i guess i've a great family ever~ my family is damn sporting, chaos n etc :)
lets begin! act~ my parents already knw that im a drunkard -,-'' and not scold me at all :D HAAHAHA~
cool~ but~ even they not scold me, its doesnt mean that i can keep drink an achohol :) boomboomboom~
fewww~ xD <3

run run & run away :D

 okay guys :) 

last month aku siao kejapp~

aku run away dari ruma~

that time ape aku fikir pun aku ta tahu sakk~

but whatever is~

im safe :)

my loveydovey mataer yang jaga aku masa aku lari tuu~

walaaa~

have a great weekend with him le <3

for the first time i stay with him for 24/7 xD

serously happy!!

even ad laa jugak both of us step merajuk -,-''

tapi tuu sajee jeee na mentel2 xD HAHA

then aku balik ruma :D 

everything was okay n normal :)

and now my family more happy than before xD

yeahh~ i love my family!!

ilovemy mataer too! <3

awwwww~ kinda busy :D

 

HELOOO my loveydovey BLOG ! xD haaa~ well~ long time siol never update my blog -,-'
im kinda busy le with my prob and the thing what is goes around me -,-'' *cop! betul pe ayat aku nii -,,-'
okay~ haaa~ act.. too many thing sakk happen pat aku lately nii~ err~ tpi tamo uh update pat post nii~ post lgi satu eh eh eh :D kboiiii! <3

im crying

i try to not cry~
but i cant!!!
i cant keep pretend im okay anymore~
im tired~
im a weak~
crying in the darkness in the only best way i can do~
lock my self in the dark room & cry a whole day~
for something worthless~
i try to forget everything~

well~

now i go again with another guy~

after what happened before~

im tired to love again~

i go with the normal feeling~

i dont trust him even he is my bf~

yeahh~

im tired & scared my past will begin again~

so, i keep "played" with another guy behind him~

one day~

i met him at city~

i saw his eyes filled with love and honesty~

omgucci~

i still see his eyes...

on night~

im lying on my bed and thinking about him~

suddenly i realize something~

ohhmygucci~

tears on my cheeks~

he really loves me~

ohhgod~

what i;ve done to him~

:'(

i ask him for forgiveness~

but~

i know its too late for that~

i regret~

flash back

heart,love & feelings :)

i had a bf before this,

but~ sorang pun cannot be trusted!!

i hate them~

i've been broken girl many times~

yeahhyeahh~

sweet talker~

sweet promises~

and at last???

my heart have been BROKEN!

but~

i keep smiling & move, move on~

till i meet the new ones :)

yeahh~ i go again~

but~

what do i get?

nothing~

just a broken heart & tears :')

lost

i lost my self~

i mess up! a lot!

if only i can go far from this fucking place and leave everyone,

i will~

i hate my self..

i hate ppl surrounding me...

i hate what is happening around me...

i hate everything...

everything~

im tired~

tired for fake smile~

tired for pretend like everything was okay~

im tired of everything~

everything~

what all i can do is~

'lock my self in the dark'

miss him badly T,T

i miss him~ 

already 1weeks we havent meet~

omgucci~

if i can meet him now~

i will hug him tightly~

i will kiss him~

felt like im crying now,

just because i miss him :')

yeahh~

many things happen to me since last sunday.

if i can cry on his shoulders now,

i will babeh..

cuz, 

i can't keep actin' that i am

FUCKING ALRIGHT!!

*when i was writing this. i'm crying :'(

bendan

 did youu see that?? he is mine :) fullstop. <3 <3 <3

great day with my bendan :))

 3 of sep :) aww~ is a freat day ever coz im having fun with my baby bii ferdaus :D im so happy on that day :) both of us hangout together, have fun & hell yeahh ;) clubbing together :P ouhh~ and the best part is!! when i saw he dance on the floor! wtf!! damn nice le <3 <3 i like it :)  

my eyes did not blink when i saw him dancing ... 

ilovehimtilltheworldend

ilovehim more than everything :> if ade orang na beli FERDAUS nii dari aku 1juta pun aku tanak xD
cuz, he is more valuable than you think. :)

its time to be honest now :) fuhh~ -,- lately nii aku betulbetul syg dia laa -,- asal eh??? ta pnah kott rasa cm nii -,-'' err~ why siaa o,0' now, aku admit my past mistake to him :( aku tahu before nii aku bnyak bedek dia and sakitkan hati dia -,-'' tpi now, aku cuma harap dia maafkan aku :| aku tahu its hard for him to forgive my mistake :( now aku realize, he is the only one yg aku ada dlm hidup nii -,-'' dia banyak makan hati dgn aku... hmm~ and from now,,, i will pray to god everyday, that both of us will be together forever & ever~ aku hopeee sangat laaaa, dia maafkan aku for kesalahan aku yang melampau... and now, if bole aku na serious dgn relationship nii :) tanak dhaaa aku memain lagi... aku rasa enough laa aku sakit kann hati dia~ fuhh~ nasib baiklahh dia penyabar orangnya :) from now :) after raya nii :) aku akan serious dalam relationship :) no more other guys :) fuhh~ ilovehim :')

EDITED From Ferdaus ♥ ♥ ♥

 

ILove you damn hard ASHIKYN VEE,  ♥ ♥

  actually, I did this when I was bored. we do not send a message after the meeting. ouuh .. so miss him. maybe he was very tired -,,- nevermind~ let him rest. But I cant sleep! had wanted at 3:15 in the morning but still cant sleep. I hope that when he woke up later he will send a message or call me. I eagerly message from him. I want to send a message to him, but fear of disturbing him, so I just deliver the message through facebook:) i miss him so much! <3 <3 iloveyou ferdaus!

my LOVE

29 OF AUG: fewwww~ imisshim~ really miss him! i dont know why, lately i felt something different -,-' i just wanna be with him~ ;) i need him & i love him so much!!! <3 <3

my mangkuk ayun!

heyyy mangkuk ayun FERDAUS !!! for chu sweetheart <3 <3 loveyouuuu!

 heyyaaaa! did chuuuuu see the picture above??? fewww~ damn awesome chu know!!! im gonna pierce like that 1week before SPM or after SPM!! gorgeous babeh xD loveeeeeee it! <3

Christian TV - Love 2 Baby

love 2 BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY~ <3

Jennifer Lopez - I'm Into You ft. Lil Wayne

this song i heard when i was clubbing at 9mm :) i felt really sexy when dj's play this songs :D but,, its gonna be awesome if my boyfriend also theres be with me :D feeewww~ iloveit!!! <3

Goldfish & Blink Ft Altimet & ZE! - In The House

okayyy :) swear vdeo nii merepek -,-'' music okay ,,, n how bout the vdeo sakk?? o,0'' merepek nohh! hellooooooo~ you guys bole bt vdeo yg more better than this kott i guess.. fewww~

high feverrrrrr~ annoy' me sakk!

errr~ damn sick right now babeh -,-'' panadol make me sick plus sick n sick!! grr~ my headache make me wanna hit my head on the wall -,-'' my flu make me flu damn messy! my fever make me wanna die early!!! my pills make me wanna vomit! sakk uh!! fuhhhh~ whats wrong with me i also dont know~ nahhh! i guess, mybe i think too much about my problems --, but wait! ape sakk masala aku??? -,,-'' ishhh~ fewww~ nak baek demam cepattt!!! grrrr~

my BLOOD

heyy bitch!!! you seeeee that gurl??? o,0 haa~ she is my HALF BLOOD yoooo~ nameee dia,,, anak OTHMAN... hehe..ouhhh~ wrong wrong :/ name dia NUR AISHAH OTHMAN.. haa~ baru betul xD act,,, its damn hard wanna describe bout her -,-'' pffttt~ but what i really sure bout her, she's damn CUTE! sometimes she's damn funny and quite crazy yooo~ but... sometimes she's really moody~ fuyooooo~ on that time i really scared wanna poke her siaa -,- ohh yarhhh :) at my school,, other students also call her BLURCOCK xD if im not mistaken laaa~ HAHAHAHA~ well~ she's really blur act xD thats what i like bout her dooood :D she's always  care bout me!!!!!!!!!! but didnt care bout herself -,- guess what,, she wish that god gave her a SICKNESS... wtf -,- weirdo girl siaaa -,-  but whatever is~ ILOVEHERRRRRRRRR! grrr~ my lil' girl, i'll always be on your side :D <3 <3 <3

my NYAWA

heyyy dudeeeee and babeeee :D did you saw this guy??? o,0 if you all wanna know he is my lovey dovey guy!!! grrrr~ really "KAMCING'' sakk with me :) he also my party people guy :) i met him on 2008 i guess,,, i was in form 2 on that time! HAHAHA~ we never talk with eachother on that time :) just always meet at town :) pffttt~ on that time i really dont like him -,-'' i also dont know what makes me hates him a lot! HAHAHA~ but, a few years later,, on that time,, MYspace is damn hot, i addin' him on myspace and we start chating together :) he takes my numberPhone!!! awww~ <3 HAHAHA~ we texting, but not in the long time :) just for a few weeks i guess -,-'' then then then,, afew months later both of us starts texting again and always hangout together :) fuhhhhh~ we're really closed until his friends thinks we're lovers! HAHAHA... stupid siaaa~ and a days later! on 11 of feb 2011 :) he purpose me as his girlfriend :D awww~ I LOVE HIM!!! and hell yeahhh! i xcept him as my HEART! <3 <3 and now,, 6months we have been together :) i hope our relation will last long until the worl ends :) <3 <3 FERDAUS you are my only one :D <3

my LIGHTENING

he's the one i need in my life <3